I woke up this morning with burdens brewing up inside of me. I’m having to constantly battle with all the hurts and offenses  that I try to forgive. It saddens me when someone drops off what someone has said about me. What grieves me  is that they want a response from me.

Experience has taught me that trying to prove how right I am doesn’t matter. I’ve learned to simply digest it and let whomever believe what they want. I don’t have time to refute every bit of gossip. I do understand that people have the right to say whatever they want about me. I can’t control that but I have full control over my mouth. What doesn’t it matter if I choose not say nothing? I’ve wasted many years talking to people who didn’t take heed to wisdom that I supplied.

Now, I let my words be few or none at all. I hurt when I know someone has spoken ill about me. Sometimes I even cry. Yet, my sadness brings about a birth of clarity. People will be people and I have the right to forgive and move on. This isn’t an overnight process. It takes time to see it spiritually once someone has hurt you. Being lead by the spirit, makes me see things how they are. My flesh can’t trick me into seeing something that doesn’t exist.

I simply understand that offenses will come in life,but I must use spiritually defenses to help me grow. I can choose to use my flesh or my spirit.

Maturity lets me know that God is with me and I’m not bearing whatever I go through alone.  I do hurt when I lose people who once were my friends, but I do understand purpose. With purpose some people aren’t suppose to be in life but for a season.